Jean

No, no.

I like going with the flow.

I mean, living in a moment and enjoying, you know, whatever's going on in social aspects, social events.

Before it was a conversation and, you know, and now it's a fight.

And one of us is going to walk away angry because we're not seeing eye to eye on something.

So I started really wondering...

who I was with.

I mean, this person that I had been with for, you know, better part of 15 years really started to take a change, maybe.

Bottom line is it became very confusing to me as far as how to manage our relationship.

I would even comment to her and say, you know, I don't recognize you.

I need a roadmap.

It's like I need a roadmap to figure out, you know, what's within bounds and what's out of bounds.

I don't feel like I can be myself.

with you the way I used to be because I don't want to offend you or I don't want to make you feel badly because things have changed a lot.

I used to love feeling her body, her big body, next to me in bed.

the softness of her body, you know, the extra tummy and the extra booty.

So I miss that, that voluptuousness.

Um,

And that was an attraction early on in our relationship, to me anyways, being able to lean up next to her and feel her, for lack of a better word, draping over me or onto me.

That's no longer an option.