Jean

You know, just leave it as just how do you get over being anxious leaving the kids?

And this is the reason.

I'm really grateful for the sacrifices that my, when I say my parents, my adoptive parents,

gave to us.

Like I'm, I'm extremely grateful for that.

And I don't want, you know, this is out there in the world and I don't want my mom to hear this and think that I'm, I'm ungrateful or I think that she's putting my children in terrible situations because that's not it at all.

But when I bring these concerns to her and I say, look, I'm feeling this away or I don't like that y'all, you know, the, you know, the boys are just being boys and they're,

They're boys.

You know, my kids have been raised with these little boys their entire life.

They spent every day together for several years.

You know, my oldest one was basically like a twin with the other cousin.

They're six weeks apart, inseparable, you know.

How do I fix that?

I feel very broken.

I told my husband yesterday, I was like, I feel like I want to just light myself on fire and to deal with this because it would just be easier just to cancel the whole trip altogether.

And just take them with us.

Well, we do that not very often because my mom wants the kids when it's,

fits into her schedule.

And my husband's family, they work full time.

But we did.