Jelly Roll

Like it was never in my plan, like of life.

Even as I was getting successful, I was like coming out here and like life was getting good for me.

And in my mind I was like, okay, good.

When I die, at least my kids might be okay and they won't be ashamed of me.

Wow.

That's how I was thinking, Joe.

I was literally thinking that way.

In my mind, I was just pushing, like, if I could just get this machine down a little bit, my kids won't be ashamed of me.

They won't have to be the dad.

At least their daddy died of obesity because he had mental health issues, but he was a cool fucking dude, man, that did some cool stuff, you know?

And it was like...

I never would have thought I could have this kind of life.

I never thought I could.

Even even when I sat here and talked to you before, in my mind, I was thinking, man, I probably never see Joe again.

I think, you know, it'll probably go any day for me.

You know what I mean?

Like my heart could quit in any day.

I could relapse and overdose.

I'm not thinking right most of the time, you know, to like sit here and look at you now like, dog, I'm going to be a 70 year old man with you, Bubba.

You know what I'm saying?