Jennelle Gordon

It's a lot.

So also the natural birth, the hormones were just, so it was rough.

So I was having postpartum and it brought back a lot of the trauma from being trafficked and all this stuff.

It was rough.

I was like, I can't like, I had the thought.

So when, when men say postpartum is not real, it kind of annoys me.

I'm not saying that it can't be alleviated naturally, but

But to say it's not real is so not fair because you know me, I'm really natural, but that shit was real.

I've never taken aspirin.

I don't take any of that sort of thing, but I had fucking postpartum.

Like I had thoughts that were really crazy and very scary.

And in that moment, like I was doing homeopathy, I was doing all this stuff.

shit wasn't working.

So at that point I did go see a doctor and I was like, I need to be on a mild SSRI because I'm my son and I need to live.

Like that was what I did.

I went on for three months, weaned myself off, which you're not supposed to do, but I've never been on anything since.

And I guess I needed it or I just needed support, but I didn't have it.

So I had to go for the next best thing.

But it was during that time I was a low, low, low, low, low spot.

And I just remember thinking like, I can't go on anymore like this.