Jess

I honestly have no idea. I think I was... I'm not very big on physical affection, I guess. I know that sounds weird. My family is, like, my dad's part is Japanese. So I wasn't raised with a whole lot of physical affection. And I think it caught me off guard. And I wasn't quite sure if I wanted it or not because I knew he had a wife. And, like, I knew he had five kids.

And I was like, I don't know if I want five kids. And I didn't know what I wanted at that point.

And I was like, I don't know if I want five kids. And I didn't know what I wanted at that point.

And I was like, I don't know if I want five kids. And I didn't know what I wanted at that point.

A little more than Ben. It's like five and a half years. My clean date is June 1st, 2019.

A little more than Ben. It's like five and a half years. My clean date is June 1st, 2019.

A little more than Ben. It's like five and a half years. My clean date is June 1st, 2019.

I wasn't aware of all of it, but I had my own past, so I wasn't totally worried about that. I think what really attracted me to him was I love nature and I love music. And I love smart people because I've always wanted to be, like, really smart, and I don't really see myself like that. But he was. And, like, as you've heard in his story, he's extremely intelligent.

I wasn't aware of all of it, but I had my own past, so I wasn't totally worried about that. I think what really attracted me to him was I love nature and I love music. And I love smart people because I've always wanted to be, like, really smart, and I don't really see myself like that. But he was. And, like, as you've heard in his story, he's extremely intelligent.

I wasn't aware of all of it, but I had my own past, so I wasn't totally worried about that. I think what really attracted me to him was I love nature and I love music. And I love smart people because I've always wanted to be, like, really smart, and I don't really see myself like that. But he was. And, like, as you've heard in his story, he's extremely intelligent.

And it's very hard to find somebody that is that intelligent and nerd-like who also listens to metal and, you know, likes nature and hiking. And I found all of that in Ben. And he was funny. He made me laugh. Like, if you can make me laugh, that's a big plus.

And it's very hard to find somebody that is that intelligent and nerd-like who also listens to metal and, you know, likes nature and hiking. And I found all of that in Ben. And he was funny. He made me laugh. Like, if you can make me laugh, that's a big plus.

And it's very hard to find somebody that is that intelligent and nerd-like who also listens to metal and, you know, likes nature and hiking. And I found all of that in Ben. And he was funny. He made me laugh. Like, if you can make me laugh, that's a big plus.

Wow, that's a good question. There was a little, I was comfortable in knowing that I wouldn't be judged for who I was and I think there was comfortability there because I was raised by an addict, like my mom's a crack addict was. But at the same time, I know how bad it can get, how much of a train wreck all of that can turn into.

Wow, that's a good question. There was a little, I was comfortable in knowing that I wouldn't be judged for who I was and I think there was comfortability there because I was raised by an addict, like my mom's a crack addict was. But at the same time, I know how bad it can get, how much of a train wreck all of that can turn into.

Wow, that's a good question. There was a little, I was comfortable in knowing that I wouldn't be judged for who I was and I think there was comfortability there because I was raised by an addict, like my mom's a crack addict was. But at the same time, I know how bad it can get, how much of a train wreck all of that can turn into.

So it was comforting knowing that I had somebody that could understand me, but it was also terrifying at the same time.

So it was comforting knowing that I had somebody that could understand me, but it was also terrifying at the same time.

So it was comforting knowing that I had somebody that could understand me, but it was also terrifying at the same time.

Yeah, pretty much, yeah. And it was the same thing with Ben. I was able to be completely transparent. I'm a very open book anyway, but there's certain things that I won't. But with him, it was like we were just connected instantly. I just knew that's who I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life.