Jess

Yeah, pretty much, yeah. And it was the same thing with Ben. I was able to be completely transparent. I'm a very open book anyway, but there's certain things that I won't. But with him, it was like we were just connected instantly. I just knew that's who I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life.

Yeah, pretty much, yeah. And it was the same thing with Ben. I was able to be completely transparent. I'm a very open book anyway, but there's certain things that I won't. But with him, it was like we were just connected instantly. I just knew that's who I was supposed to be with for the rest of my life.

He was actually blackout drunk at that point. And this was like right into the first of our relationships. So I didn't know what to do. I'm newly clean at this time. The first time since I was 13. And I didn't want to mess that up. I wasn't really sure what I was supposed to be doing with him blackout drunk. And I didn't know he had been drinking at this point.

He was actually blackout drunk at that point. And this was like right into the first of our relationships. So I didn't know what to do. I'm newly clean at this time. The first time since I was 13. And I didn't want to mess that up. I wasn't really sure what I was supposed to be doing with him blackout drunk. And I didn't know he had been drinking at this point.

He was actually blackout drunk at that point. And this was like right into the first of our relationships. So I didn't know what to do. I'm newly clean at this time. The first time since I was 13. And I didn't want to mess that up. I wasn't really sure what I was supposed to be doing with him blackout drunk. And I didn't know he had been drinking at this point.

I had found like a vodka bottle in the truck. Like I was going to the store and found this, came back home, confronted him about it. And if you know Ben, like if he's drunk, he will never admit it. He'll be slurring and still not admitting that he drank. So I called Erin once it got so bad that he was blackout drunk and he wouldn't wake up. And I was freaking out.

I had found like a vodka bottle in the truck. Like I was going to the store and found this, came back home, confronted him about it. And if you know Ben, like if he's drunk, he will never admit it. He'll be slurring and still not admitting that he drank. So I called Erin once it got so bad that he was blackout drunk and he wouldn't wake up. And I was freaking out.

I had found like a vodka bottle in the truck. Like I was going to the store and found this, came back home, confronted him about it. And if you know Ben, like if he's drunk, he will never admit it. He'll be slurring and still not admitting that he drank. So I called Erin once it got so bad that he was blackout drunk and he wouldn't wake up. And I was freaking out.

So I called Erin because she had moved into her own place at this point. I was like, please come to the house. I don't know what to do with him because she's been married. You know, she's been with him for so long. She knew how to deal with this. So she came over and We're smoking a cigarette outside. And she's like, just so you know. Or she said, are you sleeping with Ben?

So I called Erin because she had moved into her own place at this point. I was like, please come to the house. I don't know what to do with him because she's been married. You know, she's been with him for so long. She knew how to deal with this. So she came over and We're smoking a cigarette outside. And she's like, just so you know. Or she said, are you sleeping with Ben?

So I called Erin because she had moved into her own place at this point. I was like, please come to the house. I don't know what to do with him because she's been married. You know, she's been with him for so long. She knew how to deal with this. So she came over and We're smoking a cigarette outside. And she's like, just so you know. Or she said, are you sleeping with Ben?

She's like, I know you're sleeping together in the same bed. I mean, are you sleeping with Ben? And I just felt this weight because I didn't want to say yes. But I knew it was better to tell the truth. I was like, yes, we are sleeping together. She's like, oh, because he's sleeping with me too. And dude, I like every, just everything in me got ripped out. Like I felt like I was going to die.

She's like, I know you're sleeping together in the same bed. I mean, are you sleeping with Ben? And I just felt this weight because I didn't want to say yes. But I knew it was better to tell the truth. I was like, yes, we are sleeping together. She's like, oh, because he's sleeping with me too. And dude, I like every, just everything in me got ripped out. Like I felt like I was going to die.

She's like, I know you're sleeping together in the same bed. I mean, are you sleeping with Ben? And I just felt this weight because I didn't want to say yes. But I knew it was better to tell the truth. I was like, yes, we are sleeping together. She's like, oh, because he's sleeping with me too. And dude, I like every, just everything in me got ripped out. Like I felt like I was going to die.

And the thing about me, I'll never let anybody know if I'm hurt. Like, I got this protection wall, and I was like, ah, guys suck. And that's all I said. Like, I just totally nonchalant. I did not let her know it bugged me in the least, but inside, I was fucking dying. And... You know, we go back into Ben, and she checks on him, and I'm living in her house and their house at this point.

And the thing about me, I'll never let anybody know if I'm hurt. Like, I got this protection wall, and I was like, ah, guys suck. And that's all I said. Like, I just totally nonchalant. I did not let her know it bugged me in the least, but inside, I was fucking dying. And... You know, we go back into Ben, and she checks on him, and I'm living in her house and their house at this point.

And the thing about me, I'll never let anybody know if I'm hurt. Like, I got this protection wall, and I was like, ah, guys suck. And that's all I said. Like, I just totally nonchalant. I did not let her know it bugged me in the least, but inside, I was fucking dying. And... You know, we go back into Ben, and she checks on him, and I'm living in her house and their house at this point.

And, you know, she's got the kids in her own little apartment, and she leaves. She's like, he's going to be fine. Let him sleep it off. And that was it, and she left. And it was just—so I'm like sitting there, and I stay up all night because I'm afraid it's going to die on me.

And, you know, she's got the kids in her own little apartment, and she leaves. She's like, he's going to be fine. Let him sleep it off. And that was it, and she left. And it was just—so I'm like sitting there, and I stay up all night because I'm afraid it's going to die on me.

And, you know, she's got the kids in her own little apartment, and she leaves. She's like, he's going to be fine. Let him sleep it off. And that was it, and she left. And it was just—so I'm like sitting there, and I stay up all night because I'm afraid it's going to die on me.