Jessi

It's crazy how the universe, like it's crazy how the next minute she'll do something that I wasn't expecting or this or that.

And it makes me feel seen.

It makes me feel heard.

It makes me feel understood.

And, you know, we're just, we're just on this path, just putting in as much effort as we can to have the best life we can.

I think that that's my my plan is is just to focus on my family like I'm not all these people online can chirp all day there's going to be people that hate me there's going to be people that hate her I think there's going to be you know a really big broad spectrum of what people think about what they've been able to see and I think the best thing that I can do in that instead of like

being pissed off or this or that.

It's to remember that that's in the past and like what we're doing now is what matters and like turning into one another and not away from one another.

jesse mentioned that you there were moments where you um were threatening to blackmail her with the messages with marciano yeah i i mean i know the saying hurt people hurt people is that kind of where it came from 100 there was no there was i was never ever and i think that was actually it was it's exactly that you know i actually never meant it it was just to cry for help hurt people hurt people i was literally just trying like be sorry for what you did like be sorry love me like

I'm anxious over here.

Like, give me something.

Oh, no, no.

You didn't feel like she was?

No.

I don't think that you asked for acknowledgement at that point, really.

Not the same way.

That's for sure.

I remember, remind me what I said to you.

Remember I wrote you that letter after we separated.

There was a line that you, and I'm trying to remember it.