Jessi

And it's not an excuse, but during those times it felt like my needs weren't being met.

And that's the way that I would come out.

That's the way I would show my frank, right?

Is...

Because I would get pissed off and I would try to control.

Because that was me screaming inside, hey, like, I want to be treated like a partner.

And you're always busy doing all these other things and appeasing everyone but me.

And you're people-pleasing all these other people in these other relationships.

That was my excuse and my thought process then, right?

Was, you know, for me it was a cry for help.

And it was a cry for attention.

And, you know, I've obviously learned a lot about myself through...

lots and lots of therapy and it's not that that part of you just disappears it's not that part of you just goes away it's just deciding that that's not who you want to be and it's not letting things that trigger you you know expose a side of you that you don't that you don't want to have like there are times where things come up and

You know, you guys will see things in the future where, you know, life's not perfect.

And we've, we've been doing our best to look inward towards one another and to try and work on our relationship because we have a beautiful family and kids that we want to raise and, and do this thing.

I, I, it's, it's, it's, it's been really hard.

He's got one too.

You know, that's a good question.

I don't know if you know much about my past, but I had my first daughter when I was 18 years old.

And in Utah, it's very much a taboo, like sex is something you don't talk about, like