Jesy Nelson

And you just have to go, honestly, I can't even describe to you how unnatural it is to have a baby and then just be taken from you.

And you just can't even do what's like your natural instinct is just look after them and care for them.

Especially as a mother.

Yeah.

Then they were there for a month in my local hospital.

And that is like, that is one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through because I just, every time I would come in, having to see another woman hold and look after my baby was just like heartbreaking for me because I was like, they don't even arm their mum.

they've been taken from me.

And now every time they are picked up, they're picked up by a different woman.

And I kept saying to Zan, and my mum, like, how do they even know that I'm their mum?

And everyone would go to me, oh, don't be silly.

They know your mum from your scent and your heartbeat.

But until you go through it, I can't explain to you how painful it is.

And I'll never forget when I walked in.

And one of the ladies was feeding her with a bottle for the first time.

And I just felt like I just wanted to die.

Because I was like, that's my job.

That's what I should be doing.

I can't even explain to you how painful it is.

Angry?

Yes.