Jillian Michaels

Which is why I'm like, let's not talk about the billboard.

Let's come back to the primary thing and explore those feelings.

I also think what's happening for you is that you're then like, I'm good how I am.

I'm good how I am.

I'm good how I am.

And you're rejecting the rejecter, which is also how you survived.

It's like, oh, you don't love me like this.

Well, fuck you.

I love me like this.

Fuck you.

I love me like this, which is another way to kind of survive that sort of pain is you reject the rejecter.

Okay, all of this makes perfect sense, the ways that you would engage in utilizing food as a coping mechanism, a defense structure, a way to manage pain, a way to manage these family dynamics.

And then at the same time, you're also talking to me about feeling like you're abandoning your community.

And that's something else I would want to explore.

Because it sounds to me like you probably felt abandoned at some point, which we all have.

But my concern is that because that hurt you so bad, whatever happened, whoever abandoned you, you're like, I can't abandon, I can't abandon this community.

And by the way, you're not abandoning them because you decide to get a little bit healthier, Marcie.

Like you and I are friends.

I'm not a body positivity activist, probably the opposite.

100%.