Jim Harris

I feel like I sort of had a fitful start, like my body's reaction to that ayahuasca. I didn't feel like I experienced a physical recovery from those ceremonies. The first night I came in with some jittery nerves and an awful lot of hopes and expectations and apprehensions, and nothing happened for me. And that felt frustrating and a bit alienating.

I feel like I sort of had a fitful start, like my body's reaction to that ayahuasca. I didn't feel like I experienced a physical recovery from those ceremonies. The first night I came in with some jittery nerves and an awful lot of hopes and expectations and apprehensions, and nothing happened for me. And that felt frustrating and a bit alienating.

I had the same little Dixie cup of weird tea as everybody around me, and other people around me are clearly experiencing something that I'm not. But I still feel very... very sober, very grounded in like consensus reality. Things have not shifted. I don't feel different. I feel impatient and a little let down. And I've made all this time and effort to be here. And like, it's not working.

I had the same little Dixie cup of weird tea as everybody around me, and other people around me are clearly experiencing something that I'm not. But I still feel very... very sober, very grounded in like consensus reality. Things have not shifted. I don't feel different. I feel impatient and a little let down. And I've made all this time and effort to be here. And like, it's not working.

I had the same little Dixie cup of weird tea as everybody around me, and other people around me are clearly experiencing something that I'm not. But I still feel very... very sober, very grounded in like consensus reality. Things have not shifted. I don't feel different. I feel impatient and a little let down. And I've made all this time and effort to be here. And like, it's not working.

I was hoping for some sort of salvation and it's not here. And then on the second night of ceremony, I had experienced like 90 minutes of transcendent bliss and that didn't feel like it answered any of my big existential questions that I felt like I had walked into the space with. But it did feel like a real beacon that it was a search worth continuing, like a inquiry that was just at the start.

I was hoping for some sort of salvation and it's not here. And then on the second night of ceremony, I had experienced like 90 minutes of transcendent bliss and that didn't feel like it answered any of my big existential questions that I felt like I had walked into the space with. But it did feel like a real beacon that it was a search worth continuing, like a inquiry that was just at the start.

I was hoping for some sort of salvation and it's not here. And then on the second night of ceremony, I had experienced like 90 minutes of transcendent bliss and that didn't feel like it answered any of my big existential questions that I felt like I had walked into the space with. But it did feel like a real beacon that it was a search worth continuing, like a inquiry that was just at the start.

I didn't. I didn't. I feel like I went, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, but just had like a kind of extended feeling that was like orgasmic in some ways, but not in any sexual way. Just like a real feeling of joy and bliss in my heart and in my tummy and in ways that is... It feels vivid to think back to it and it's really hard to put into words.

I didn't. I didn't. I feel like I went, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, but just had like a kind of extended feeling that was like orgasmic in some ways, but not in any sexual way. Just like a real feeling of joy and bliss in my heart and in my tummy and in ways that is... It feels vivid to think back to it and it's really hard to put into words.

I didn't. I didn't. I feel like I went, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, but just had like a kind of extended feeling that was like orgasmic in some ways, but not in any sexual way. Just like a real feeling of joy and bliss in my heart and in my tummy and in ways that is... It feels vivid to think back to it and it's really hard to put into words.

There was a solar eclipse in 2017, and a young man who I was friends with and who I looked up to drove to the path of totality. And then that night, after leaving wherever he'd viewed the eclipse from, I was in a car accident and passed away. And I was pretty gutted by that.

There was a solar eclipse in 2017, and a young man who I was friends with and who I looked up to drove to the path of totality. And then that night, after leaving wherever he'd viewed the eclipse from, I was in a car accident and passed away. And I was pretty gutted by that.

There was a solar eclipse in 2017, and a young man who I was friends with and who I looked up to drove to the path of totality. And then that night, after leaving wherever he'd viewed the eclipse from, I was in a car accident and passed away. And I was pretty gutted by that.

And one of the things that I looked up to him for was he was part of this men's group, this closed group, where he was, I think, the youngest person by a fair margin. And I really wanted to be part of it. But they weren't interested in taking new members. They had this small collection of people.

And one of the things that I looked up to him for was he was part of this men's group, this closed group, where he was, I think, the youngest person by a fair margin. And I really wanted to be part of it. But they weren't interested in taking new members. They had this small collection of people.

And one of the things that I looked up to him for was he was part of this men's group, this closed group, where he was, I think, the youngest person by a fair margin. And I really wanted to be part of it. But they weren't interested in taking new members. They had this small collection of people.

And so then at his wake, somebody said something to me about like, oh, I always want to be part of that men's group. And I was like, wait, he did? And the two of us started chatting and somebody else nearby was like, oh, yeah, that men's group sounds awesome. I wish I could be like, wait, wait, what's your phone number? We can do this on our own.

And so then at his wake, somebody said something to me about like, oh, I always want to be part of that men's group. And I was like, wait, he did? And the two of us started chatting and somebody else nearby was like, oh, yeah, that men's group sounds awesome. I wish I could be like, wait, wait, what's your phone number? We can do this on our own.

And so then at his wake, somebody said something to me about like, oh, I always want to be part of that men's group. And I was like, wait, he did? And the two of us started chatting and somebody else nearby was like, oh, yeah, that men's group sounds awesome. I wish I could be like, wait, wait, what's your phone number? We can do this on our own.