Jimmy Fallon

So if I didn't go out, they would buy me a six-pack of beer that I could drink at probably, you know, 16 or something or something like that. You know, I'm not the smartest, but they would, you know, I would hang out with my friends and they would say, yeah, they're going to have a couple of beers. And, you know, I would watch Siren Live with a six pack and watch it and study it.

So if I didn't go out, they would buy me a six-pack of beer that I could drink at probably, you know, 16 or something or something like that. You know, I'm not the smartest, but they would, you know, I would hang out with my friends and they would say, yeah, they're going to have a couple of beers. And, you know, I would watch Siren Live with a six pack and watch it and study it.

And I ended up just stop watching it with anyone else. You know, I guess I still drank. That's sad that I drank by myself, but I became an alcoholic at 16. But it was a thing that I would do, and I would just study it. And every Saturday Night Live, and continuing into college, my friends would have parties, and they'd go, you've got to come, right? I'd go, I'll be there at 1 o'clock.

And I ended up just stop watching it with anyone else. You know, I guess I still drank. That's sad that I drank by myself, but I became an alcoholic at 16. But it was a thing that I would do, and I would just study it. And every Saturday Night Live, and continuing into college, my friends would have parties, and they'd go, you've got to come, right? I'd go, I'll be there at 1 o'clock.

They'd go, no, the party's, you've got to come. I'd go, Saturday Night Live, you can't go. They'd go, just tape it. I'd go, I can't just tape it. I have to watch it live. Obsessed. Yeah, I was beyond obsessed. Obsessed, without a doubt. That was it. That was the pinnacle. Even I went on an NBC tour with my dad, like a bus trip to New York City and took me on a tour of NBC to see Siren Live.

They'd go, no, the party's, you've got to come. I'd go, Saturday Night Live, you can't go. They'd go, just tape it. I'd go, I can't just tape it. I have to watch it live. Obsessed. Yeah, I was beyond obsessed. Obsessed, without a doubt. That was it. That was the pinnacle. Even I went on an NBC tour with my dad, like a bus trip to New York City and took me on a tour of NBC to see Siren Live.

I was older. I was just so nervous to go in the building. Oh my gosh, this is the building. This is what it looks like. This is the doorway and the revolving door. I know all this. I know everything. I know what the walls look like. I know what the ceiling is painted like. I know art deco, decoration. I knew everything. I geeked out, and I was like, this is the best day just going on tour there.

I was older. I was just so nervous to go in the building. Oh my gosh, this is the building. This is what it looks like. This is the doorway and the revolving door. I know all this. I know everything. I know what the walls look like. I know what the ceiling is painted like. I know art deco, decoration. I knew everything. I geeked out, and I was like, this is the best day just going on tour there.

Now I've worked there for 20-something years. It's my home. I've been working in that building since 1998. I don't even think about it anymore. That's the door going to work. Every now and then I'll walk to, you know, I walk to work almost every day, but I'll get that feeling again, like, oh yeah, don't lose that.

Now I've worked there for 20-something years. It's my home. I've been working in that building since 1998. I don't even think about it anymore. That's the door going to work. Every now and then I'll walk to, you know, I walk to work almost every day, but I'll get that feeling again, like, oh yeah, don't lose that.

And I'm a pretty positive guy in general. But I think that was probably my lowest looking back. I mean, I remember like,

And I'm a pretty positive guy in general. But I think that was probably my lowest looking back. I mean, I remember like,

know trying to see what therapy was or if i could afford a therapist or what that meant or why because i was just breaking down mentally of like what what what have i what have i done like what have i done i've kind of made these decisions and i wasn't getting anywhere and it was like i mean i had Really kind of no friends and no social life.

know trying to see what therapy was or if i could afford a therapist or what that meant or why because i was just breaking down mentally of like what what what have i what have i done like what have i done i've kind of made these decisions and i wasn't getting anywhere and it was like i mean i had Really kind of no friends and no social life.

Just obsessed with work and obsessed with stand-up and trying to make my act better and trying to see if I can get on Saturday Night Live and having no money and just going like, what is this all about? You know, I don't know if I can afford to keep failing. I can't live in an apartment if you don't make money. I can't afford gas to get to the audition. You can't eat.

Just obsessed with work and obsessed with stand-up and trying to make my act better and trying to see if I can get on Saturday Night Live and having no money and just going like, what is this all about? You know, I don't know if I can afford to keep failing. I can't live in an apartment if you don't make money. I can't afford gas to get to the audition. You can't eat.

You just go, oh yeah, I just got to keep doing gigs, but I'm running out of space. So maybe if I go home, I can go back to doing these little clubs and make some money, save up money, then go back out and try again in L.A., I remember there came a moment where I'm like, oof. I think I wrote a letter to my best friend like, I'm losing a dude.

You just go, oh yeah, I just got to keep doing gigs, but I'm running out of space. So maybe if I go home, I can go back to doing these little clubs and make some money, save up money, then go back out and try again in L.A., I remember there came a moment where I'm like, oof. I think I wrote a letter to my best friend like, I'm losing a dude.

And in fact, I know I did because he still has the letter. And he works for our show now. And he says, I have it, and I'll publish it one day. I'll give it to people if I need the money. I'll release your letter if you're emotionally broken. And I go... But that's what best friends do. They hold it over your head.

And in fact, I know I did because he still has the letter. And he works for our show now. And he says, I have it, and I'll publish it one day. I'll give it to people if I need the money. I'll release your letter if you're emotionally broken. And I go... But that's what best friends do. They hold it over your head.