Joanne McNally

You just existed together.

You lived locally, you just existed.

Now it's like this effort.

And then if someone doesn't make the effort, you get annoyed.

You're like, why am I making the effort?

And then things kind of like fade away and dilute.

And then you're left with nothing.

Is it?

Okay.

I'm guessing it's not Amber.

I remember years ago when a member of my family, his name I will not disclose, I found out they were smoking and I left like I was...

You know, when you're like 12 and you think that anyone smoking is going to be dead within the year.

And I left this letter in their, in their, in their bedding, begging them, like, and there was like, it was wet with my tears of like how much I was begging them to give it up.

And like, I want, I love them so much and I want them to live forever.

And I couldn't bury the idea of life without them and everything.

Here's me last night after drinks, fag on one hand, vape on the other.

And there I am buying Gina smokes on the plane.

Stop, I know, I know.

Listen, life comes at your heart, doesn't it?

Huh?