Joel Kim Booster

But I mean, like the moments before, like being and I'll be specific hypomanic, I'm bipolar too.

So I don't necessarily experience manic episodes in the same way someone who's bipolar one does.

Those are a little bit more extreme, but hypomania is like a step below that.

And, you know, it is.

I was the best version of myself in some ways when I was hypomanic because I was so charismatic.

I was so outgoing.

I was so funny.

I was so full of energy.

And then like something would destabilize me and I would go from being that person to like a dark, dark, angry, you know, person who didn't, none of it lined up.

Um, you know, but then like in hindsight, it's like in the days leading up to the thing that destabilized me, I was having sex with someone like five guys in a day and buying a shit ton of online goods and like, didn't really connect those dots until, until after the diagnosis.

Then I had a framework to really understand that behavior.

Yeah, I always describe it to people who maybe don't understand.

It is like rolling on Molly in some ways.

And chemically it's very similar too.

So, you know, it feels really like euphoric even at times until it doesn't.

Yeah, I mean, it's been fits and starts for sure.

I, you know, finding the right medication, finding the right dose of the medication, staying on the medication.

It's all been great.

Sort of in and out.

I think like the last two years have been like the most consistent.