John B. Allen (MrBallen)
👤 SpeakerAppearances Over Time
Podcast Appearances
and vanishes.
And so it's, it's really the same thing in a row, the same thing, two nights in a row and not comforting, like worse.
It only made it more real that it had happened again.
And I'm still laying there wondering where it went.
That isn't like, Oh, don't worry.
Yesterday it vanished.
It'll vanish today.
You know, like it was the same.
It was, it was like replay.
And
I, again, laid there, could barely sleep.
Eventually, out of sheer exhaustion from snowboarding all day, barely sleeping, I did fall asleep.
And then I woke up at a certain point.
And again, I hear Nick's mom out in the kitchen.
This time, that morning, when I got out of bed and went in there, I didn't care at all about being offensive.
Didn't care in the least.
I walked out there and I was like...
hysterical.
Like, I don't even know what to say to you.
Like, please tell me your sons were here.