John B. Allen (MrBallen)

I don't want to be here.

But this is a trip that I have looked forward.

This is like the one big trip.

Like my family didn't have a lot of money or anything.

This was like a big deal to get to go do this big trip.

This was awesome.

And it was like all I talked about.

And so the idea that I'd be calling my folks up, like, yo, drive to New Hampshire, pick me up and bring me home because I'm seeing ghosts in the cabin.

There's a fucking ghost.

It just felt like two.

And then it also, it was like, I don't know how this will be interpreted long-term.

you know, am I being totally insensitive to the fact that I went here to support the family who's lost their dad and I'm claiming a ghost scared me off.

It just, it was a lot.

And I grappled with it.

And I remember I talked openly to everybody, to the mom, to Nick, to Wolf.

I'm like, I'm just, I'm just going to stay.

Like I was like openly saying that I wanted to get the fuck out of here, but I'm like, I'll just stay.

It's one more night.

I'll stay with you guys.

It is what it is.