John Graham
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114 appearances
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first heard Jan 2025
last heard Jan 2025
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It felt like an adrenaline surge, a surge of voltage just go up. All of a sudden, I become extremely vigilant. What's wrong? I'm just completely scrambled in my mind trying to figure out what's happening.
And I remembered what I had been practicing of how to relax through it, relaxing every muscle in my body that was tense because the tension is what holds it in, you know, when you talk about putting it back down. Relaxed my body in that moment. I said, okay, let it happen. I've already had panic attacks enough to know that I'm not going to die. They're awful, but I relaxed.
I allowed it and it surged through within seconds and it was gone. And I had never transmuted that much energy in that short of time, like completely transmuted it. It was insane. And I changed my life because I realized I could do that. Maybe not every single time. But in that moment, I proved what was happening. I proved that this stuff is inside of me. It wants out.
And if I allow it to go out, it will move through me just like it was meant to 30 years ago or 10 years ago or yesterday, whenever I suppressed it or suppressed all of these moments. And so what I realized and the reason people don't want to feel their feelings, right, especially men, It's like, what's the point, right? How much stuff is in there?
But what I teach now is all of that energy, emotion, whatever you want to call it, inside of you is your suppressed potential. Every time you allow that voltage to move through, you process out, you accumulate information or wisdom or data that's suppressed inside of you that was stuffed away years ago. And you actually, again, expand your capacity.
I was doing a lot of healing work, let's call it, internal work. It wasn't the greatest healing work, but I was opening up some stuff and all this energy started moving through me and I started getting really clouded in my head. I didn't know what was going on. I thought I was burnt out. I thought something physiologically was wrong with me.
So I started experiencing all of these physical symptoms. I went to a neurologist. I went to get a CAT scan because I started having panic attacks because I'm like, something's wrong with me. I got an MRI and the MRI results got emailed to me without a doctor looking at them. In those results, it said that I had a brain aneurysm.
And I freaked out because now I'm going through all this health stuff. What's wrong with me? What's causing this? And now they're telling me I have a brain aneurysm. And it told me the dimensions of it, how big it was. So in that moment, I freaked the F out. I thought I'm going to die. I said, oh my gosh, I got to remain calm all the time. But this is before I even talked to a doctor.
I should have talked to someone first, right? So I started ignoring everything that was uncomfortable. I said, I have to remain calm at all times. I can't let anything bother me. And as you know now, that made it intensely worse because I was stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing. And I exploded. I was a week in and I just started having panic attacks.
I got good news that there was nothing wrong with me, by the way. So I'm good. It's an okay thing. Nothing's wrong with me. But the panic attacks, even after I got that news and that relief, they were happening every day now because I had conditioned that neural pathway. So I had a panic attack when I was driving over a bridge on the way to a restaurant once.
And every time I drove over that bridge again, which is by my house, I had another panic attack. I had a panic attack in my kitchen. So when I went down to my kitchen the next day, I had another one. These moments trigger and trigger and trigger. That's why people's walls cave in is because you're training your brain and neural pathways to recognize, oh my gosh, that's a scary moment.
And so my walls just started closing in, even though I was physically okay. So it's crazy that these things can develop. And that's the time that I realized I needed to drastically change every approach that I was doing.
That's when I learned it was an emotional root issue, how to lean into it, how to feel it, how to let it surge through me, along with a couple other things that I teach, which are regulating your nervous system. And I also help people or release some of the bigger boulders inside of them, you know, the biggest events in their life that really are holding them down.
Yeah, on the surface, that looked amazing. Like many of us do at the top, quote unquote, right? We got it all together. But you were going through your own struggles. I didn't realize I had anxiety. Since I was 13, I probably had it.
I just thought that was normal to be in my head, to survive in my head, to feel dread every Sunday evening because I'm going to school on Monday or going to work, right? It was a normal thing for me. I feel to shut down and feel overwhelmed, to get paralyzed when I got overwhelmed, all those things. But And that's the thing, Ilana, is I tried all the mental stuff to overcome it.
Everyone listening is probably trying some sort of reframe your thoughts. to a positive or go meditate to calm yourself down or do self-care or exercise or journal or do hypnosis or supplements or some type of mental ritual, right? Like I was. Like I'm a mental genius, some people call me, right? I love the mind. I love performance. I love the brain. But the brain isn't the answer.
The brain, the mind is not the root cause of all of this internal stuff that we're dealing with. It's an emotional thing. root issue.
So I also need to share that with people is maybe you're trying all this stuff like I was trying to make it look like everything's okay on the inside, but you're also dealing with pressure with the boardroom or anxiety when it comes to school or the overwhelm of having to deal with life. All of that is emotional root issue, just like I had.
And it's completely normal for a human being to feeling those things. It's just the things that we're trying these days, the mainstream conventional performative methods are won't get to the real root of it. And that's the real, the mission I have these days is to share that part of it.
You don't step out into the world and do the things on your heart all of the time because you're paralyzed. You're afraid of the reaction it's going to get. Everyone's like, oh, you're afraid of other people. People say, oh, don't worry about what other people think. Oh, if I just believe that, I'll overcome that. But no, at your core, you're afraid to feel embarrassed.
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