John Graham

It felt like an adrenaline surge, a surge of voltage just go up. All of a sudden, I become extremely vigilant. What's wrong? I'm just completely scrambled in my mind trying to figure out what's happening.

It felt like an adrenaline surge, a surge of voltage just go up. All of a sudden, I become extremely vigilant. What's wrong? I'm just completely scrambled in my mind trying to figure out what's happening.

And I remembered what I had been practicing of how to relax through it, relaxing every muscle in my body that was tense because the tension is what holds it in, you know, when you talk about putting it back down. Relaxed my body in that moment. I said, okay, let it happen. I've already had panic attacks enough to know that I'm not going to die. They're awful, but I relaxed.

And I remembered what I had been practicing of how to relax through it, relaxing every muscle in my body that was tense because the tension is what holds it in, you know, when you talk about putting it back down. Relaxed my body in that moment. I said, okay, let it happen. I've already had panic attacks enough to know that I'm not going to die. They're awful, but I relaxed.

I allowed it and it surged through within seconds and it was gone. And I had never transmuted that much energy in that short of time, like completely transmuted it. It was insane. And I changed my life because I realized I could do that. Maybe not every single time. But in that moment, I proved what was happening. I proved that this stuff is inside of me. It wants out.

I allowed it and it surged through within seconds and it was gone. And I had never transmuted that much energy in that short of time, like completely transmuted it. It was insane. And I changed my life because I realized I could do that. Maybe not every single time. But in that moment, I proved what was happening. I proved that this stuff is inside of me. It wants out.

And if I allow it to go out, it will move through me just like it was meant to 30 years ago or 10 years ago or yesterday, whenever I suppressed it or suppressed all of these moments. And so what I realized and the reason people don't want to feel their feelings, right, especially men, It's like, what's the point, right? How much stuff is in there?

And if I allow it to go out, it will move through me just like it was meant to 30 years ago or 10 years ago or yesterday, whenever I suppressed it or suppressed all of these moments. And so what I realized and the reason people don't want to feel their feelings, right, especially men, It's like, what's the point, right? How much stuff is in there?

But what I teach now is all of that energy, emotion, whatever you want to call it, inside of you is your suppressed potential. Every time you allow that voltage to move through, you process out, you accumulate information or wisdom or data that's suppressed inside of you that was stuffed away years ago. And you actually, again, expand your capacity.

But what I teach now is all of that energy, emotion, whatever you want to call it, inside of you is your suppressed potential. Every time you allow that voltage to move through, you process out, you accumulate information or wisdom or data that's suppressed inside of you that was stuffed away years ago. And you actually, again, expand your capacity.

I was doing a lot of healing work, let's call it, internal work. It wasn't the greatest healing work, but I was opening up some stuff and all this energy started moving through me and I started getting really clouded in my head. I didn't know what was going on. I thought I was burnt out. I thought something physiologically was wrong with me.

I was doing a lot of healing work, let's call it, internal work. It wasn't the greatest healing work, but I was opening up some stuff and all this energy started moving through me and I started getting really clouded in my head. I didn't know what was going on. I thought I was burnt out. I thought something physiologically was wrong with me.

So I started experiencing all of these physical symptoms. I went to a neurologist. I went to get a CAT scan because I started having panic attacks because I'm like, something's wrong with me. I got an MRI and the MRI results got emailed to me without a doctor looking at them. In those results, it said that I had a brain aneurysm.

So I started experiencing all of these physical symptoms. I went to a neurologist. I went to get a CAT scan because I started having panic attacks because I'm like, something's wrong with me. I got an MRI and the MRI results got emailed to me without a doctor looking at them. In those results, it said that I had a brain aneurysm.

And I freaked out because now I'm going through all this health stuff. What's wrong with me? What's causing this? And now they're telling me I have a brain aneurysm. And it told me the dimensions of it, how big it was. So in that moment, I freaked the F out. I thought I'm going to die. I said, oh my gosh, I got to remain calm all the time. But this is before I even talked to a doctor.

And I freaked out because now I'm going through all this health stuff. What's wrong with me? What's causing this? And now they're telling me I have a brain aneurysm. And it told me the dimensions of it, how big it was. So in that moment, I freaked the F out. I thought I'm going to die. I said, oh my gosh, I got to remain calm all the time. But this is before I even talked to a doctor.

I should have talked to someone first, right? So I started ignoring everything that was uncomfortable. I said, I have to remain calm at all times. I can't let anything bother me. And as you know now, that made it intensely worse because I was stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing. And I exploded. I was a week in and I just started having panic attacks.

I should have talked to someone first, right? So I started ignoring everything that was uncomfortable. I said, I have to remain calm at all times. I can't let anything bother me. And as you know now, that made it intensely worse because I was stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing and stuffing. And I exploded. I was a week in and I just started having panic attacks.

I got good news that there was nothing wrong with me, by the way. So I'm good. It's an okay thing. Nothing's wrong with me. But the panic attacks, even after I got that news and that relief, they were happening every day now because I had conditioned that neural pathway. So I had a panic attack when I was driving over a bridge on the way to a restaurant once.

I got good news that there was nothing wrong with me, by the way. So I'm good. It's an okay thing. Nothing's wrong with me. But the panic attacks, even after I got that news and that relief, they were happening every day now because I had conditioned that neural pathway. So I had a panic attack when I was driving over a bridge on the way to a restaurant once.