John Graham

And every time I drove over that bridge again, which is by my house, I had another panic attack. I had a panic attack in my kitchen. So when I went down to my kitchen the next day, I had another one. These moments trigger and trigger and trigger. That's why people's walls cave in is because you're training your brain and neural pathways to recognize, oh my gosh, that's a scary moment.

And every time I drove over that bridge again, which is by my house, I had another panic attack. I had a panic attack in my kitchen. So when I went down to my kitchen the next day, I had another one. These moments trigger and trigger and trigger. That's why people's walls cave in is because you're training your brain and neural pathways to recognize, oh my gosh, that's a scary moment.

And so my walls just started closing in, even though I was physically okay. So it's crazy that these things can develop. And that's the time that I realized I needed to drastically change every approach that I was doing.

And so my walls just started closing in, even though I was physically okay. So it's crazy that these things can develop. And that's the time that I realized I needed to drastically change every approach that I was doing.

That's when I learned it was an emotional root issue, how to lean into it, how to feel it, how to let it surge through me, along with a couple other things that I teach, which are regulating your nervous system. And I also help people or release some of the bigger boulders inside of them, you know, the biggest events in their life that really are holding them down.

That's when I learned it was an emotional root issue, how to lean into it, how to feel it, how to let it surge through me, along with a couple other things that I teach, which are regulating your nervous system. And I also help people or release some of the bigger boulders inside of them, you know, the biggest events in their life that really are holding them down.

Yeah, on the surface, that looked amazing. Like many of us do at the top, quote unquote, right? We got it all together. But you were going through your own struggles. I didn't realize I had anxiety. Since I was 13, I probably had it.

Yeah, on the surface, that looked amazing. Like many of us do at the top, quote unquote, right? We got it all together. But you were going through your own struggles. I didn't realize I had anxiety. Since I was 13, I probably had it.

I just thought that was normal to be in my head, to survive in my head, to feel dread every Sunday evening because I'm going to school on Monday or going to work, right? It was a normal thing for me. I feel to shut down and feel overwhelmed, to get paralyzed when I got overwhelmed, all those things. But And that's the thing, Ilana, is I tried all the mental stuff to overcome it.

I just thought that was normal to be in my head, to survive in my head, to feel dread every Sunday evening because I'm going to school on Monday or going to work, right? It was a normal thing for me. I feel to shut down and feel overwhelmed, to get paralyzed when I got overwhelmed, all those things. But And that's the thing, Ilana, is I tried all the mental stuff to overcome it.

Everyone listening is probably trying some sort of reframe your thoughts. to a positive or go meditate to calm yourself down or do self-care or exercise or journal or do hypnosis or supplements or some type of mental ritual, right? Like I was. Like I'm a mental genius, some people call me, right? I love the mind. I love performance. I love the brain. But the brain isn't the answer.

Everyone listening is probably trying some sort of reframe your thoughts. to a positive or go meditate to calm yourself down or do self-care or exercise or journal or do hypnosis or supplements or some type of mental ritual, right? Like I was. Like I'm a mental genius, some people call me, right? I love the mind. I love performance. I love the brain. But the brain isn't the answer.

The brain, the mind is not the root cause of all of this internal stuff that we're dealing with. It's an emotional thing. root issue.

The brain, the mind is not the root cause of all of this internal stuff that we're dealing with. It's an emotional thing. root issue.

So I also need to share that with people is maybe you're trying all this stuff like I was trying to make it look like everything's okay on the inside, but you're also dealing with pressure with the boardroom or anxiety when it comes to school or the overwhelm of having to deal with life. All of that is emotional root issue, just like I had.

So I also need to share that with people is maybe you're trying all this stuff like I was trying to make it look like everything's okay on the inside, but you're also dealing with pressure with the boardroom or anxiety when it comes to school or the overwhelm of having to deal with life. All of that is emotional root issue, just like I had.

And it's completely normal for a human being to feeling those things. It's just the things that we're trying these days, the mainstream conventional performative methods are won't get to the real root of it. And that's the real, the mission I have these days is to share that part of it.

And it's completely normal for a human being to feeling those things. It's just the things that we're trying these days, the mainstream conventional performative methods are won't get to the real root of it. And that's the real, the mission I have these days is to share that part of it.

You don't step out into the world and do the things on your heart all of the time because you're paralyzed. You're afraid of the reaction it's going to get. Everyone's like, oh, you're afraid of other people. People say, oh, don't worry about what other people think. Oh, if I just believe that, I'll overcome that. But no, at your core, you're afraid to feel embarrassed.

You don't step out into the world and do the things on your heart all of the time because you're paralyzed. You're afraid of the reaction it's going to get. Everyone's like, oh, you're afraid of other people. People say, oh, don't worry about what other people think. Oh, if I just believe that, I'll overcome that. But no, at your core, you're afraid to feel embarrassed.