John Miles

Dystemia along my journey is the world...

was changing and i didn't understand how but i knew parts of me were starting to vanish and the world around me was starting to seem less bright and i couldn't put my finger on it which was one of the reasons that i went to get help but an important part of my journey was i shifted

The question I was asking myself and from what's wrong with me to what's happening inside of me.

And when you think about that question, someone who's listening might think, well, that's a small difference.

But to me, it was actually a huge shift.

Why is that such a big difference?

And I'll let you talk and then I'll explain it for me.

Paul, one of the things I realized I was doing is I was falling in the trap of the unconscious narratives I was telling myself, such as this feeling I wasn't enough, that I was broken, that I didn't matter, that I wasn't seen by other people.

But what I learned when I started to understand myself and look at the underlying things that were going on was that whole story of myself could be rewritten.

But you have to be

conscious of it first.

I think I had to become aware of the patterns that I was reinforcing in order to overcome them.

And then once I understood that, I started taking the steps to then consciously engage with my life and to start trying to figure out what was at the root of them.

Because I figured

if I'm having all these things, there's got to be something that was the starting point.

And so that became my mission was how do I get at, if there are tons of things bothering me, what was the core of that?

And so that's what I ended up doing.

And when I was able to do that and became conscious of it, I was then able to respond.

And that restoration gave me back my agency.

And I think,