Jon Acuff

Yeah, I turned 50 last December.

Yeah, mid 30s.

Yeah.

No, I think the biggest thing was I realized I was wrestling with mindset things that weren't physical, real things, but felt like it to me at the time, meaning perfectionism, procrastination, overthinking, like no one ever taught me how to think.

And I felt like I was wrestling all these tangled thoughts, all these tangled desires.

And then also, if I'm honest, I wasn't taking personal responsibility.

Like I was, there was a part of me waiting for someone else to do it.

Like,

Someone, you know, like someone, a boss should recognize that I've got this or, you know, someone else will kind of tap me on the shoulder and say like, no, you are special and you are capable.

And so that was part of it too, was kind of coming to grips with that of like, I don't know that that person's showing up necessarily the way I want them to.

What if I showed up?

Like, what would that look like for me to start to try some things that are riskier creatively?

And that's when I started to really blog and talk online.

Yeah, and it's funny.

We kind of do this weird victim thing that I've seen in myself where it's like you go, well, I can't do that because I'm so busy with my kids.

Or like I've had people that I could tell they had the entrepreneurial bug.

They wanted to start a side hustle, maybe a company, and they go, but I don't want to be a workaholic and never see my kids.

And I'll go –

whoa, like there's a huge gap between not do the thing and sit on it and become a workaholic that doesn't know their kids' first names.

Like there's so much land between those two things and your kids aren't telling you that, or I've seen it in marriages where they go, well, my wife really wouldn't want me to do this.