Judd Apatow

And then when she finally started sleeping, I remember my brain fog clearing, uh,

and going, oh, wow, I've been in another dimension for a year.

My exhaustion, you know, when they talk about if you don't sleep well for a night or two, it's the equivalent of just being drunk.

That's what it felt like for a year.

Yeah.

And each decision is,

even and i remember i had a friend who i always said wow he just takes us so seriously and it's like life or death like he'll die if this doesn't come out how he wants it to and it took me a long time to realize that maybe not to that extent but that's what i'm doing

but it's just 15% less than the person I'm judging for doing it.

Well, because in the beginning, I would write for people like Gary Shandling, and, you know, they were obsessive, and that was a lot of their brilliance, and...

I would think, okay, don't be that intense.

Because they seem like they're not having as much fun as they should.

That there's a lot of pain in this.

And so I've always tried to modulate it.

But as I get older, I realize I didn't succeed as much as I thought I did.

Like in my head, I was modulating.

Like, no, you were pretty bad.

Like when I was putting the comedy nerd book together, I was writing about things that worked, things that failed, and why.

And I could see my intensity as I...

collected all the photos and wrote all the essays.

Like, well, you were a maniac.