Julian Barnes
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which is sort of kind of unanswerable I think.
If he's a loving God, then why does the just do badly?
Why do the unjust succeed?
Why do innocent people get suddenly killed?
It makes no sense except that the defense from the religious
is God moves in mysterious ways we simply don't know.
We'll find out later.
That's sort of not good enough for me.
I remember very clearly when I thought that I might kill myself.
It was a few weeks after my wife had died and I was walking home and
I looked across at the curb on the other side of the road.
And at that moment, I still see that curb stone on a daily basis.
And I thought, of course, you can kill yourself.
That's permissible.
It's not unforgivable in my morality.
I'm extremely unhappy.
I'm bereft.
I'm lost, though I have many friends.
I think I said, or a friend said to me, I can't remember which way around it was, give it two years.
I said, okay, I'll give it two years.