Justina Blakeney

Like I just have a lot of noise in my head and I need it to be visually quiet.

It's not that I don't get that.

I totally do.

It's just not what resonates with me.

And it's not what sort of ignites my imagination.

Hmm.

I'm struggling with something like, I feel the tingle for a certain thing for painting or for music, but my whole life is set up for other things and where and when and how sometimes I

Do I allow myself to just follow the tingle?

And how and when and where sometimes do I do the thing that sometimes feels like the responsible thing or the thing that's maybe better for more people?

And I think that's just probably something that

is never going to be a hundred percent clear, but I'm trying to find tools to help me with it.

And I think that I'm also just candidly struggling with just keeping my body healthy.

I went through this two year gung ho all in eating super clean, exercising a lot.

Like I was in it and

And my head's just not in it the same way that it was five or six months ago.

I'm journaling and I'm like, my head's not in it.

What should I do about that?

You know, and I think it's because I'm pretty good at kind of goal setting and like reaching that goal.

But when I get to the goal, I have this like now what kind of feeling.

And with where I was at with my health, where I was trying to reach certain goals, like with my cholesterol and get my cholesterol down and do all this stuff.