Kaelyn Moore

There is something about and I'm gonna cry.

The first few weeks of having a baby, I think I just spent a lot of time like I'm crying, but.

You spend a lot of time thinking about like the people that just aren't there anymore.

Like there is something about having a new life where you think about the people that aren't there to experience it with you too.

And I just like have felt them so much.

I had an aunt who passed away when I was pregnant and I would text her every single update about the baby.

Every single time I got a picture, I would send it to her.

She wanted to be so involved.

And she was older.

So there's always a chance that they're just not going to

make it to the baby being born but I guess I had never really thought about that and then one day I got the call that she had passed away and in my mind I was like no she's been such a part of this every step of the way what do you mean she's not here anymore that's impossible and she would text me every single month on the 16th because my birthday is February 16th so she would always say like happy sweet 16 and or and just like and that's when we would catch up and stuff and so like the 16th of every month I feel like I don't know I just like feel her like when I'm up late with the baby or

I don't know.

Just just I just feel so much with the baby, too.

Like I know that she was there, that she was.

It's not like, oh, she's not going to be part of this process anymore.

Like she was even more part of the process after that.

You know, it's really special.

It's beautiful that you have that connection.

Yeah.

Did you have you gotten anything on the 16th of a month yet?