Kail Lowry

I would rather you shoot it to me straight.

And I would rather be uncomfortable.

It's kind of like when my doctor, after I had Lincoln, I had, I guess, third infertility, but like secondary infertility.

And he looked at me and he was like, Kale, he's like, you should be happy with what you have.

You have two healthy boys.

um there are kids there are people in their 40s that are trying for the first time and can't get pregnant like just be happy with what you got and some people were really upset when I talked about that they were like why would your doctor say that to you but I'm like he's not wrong and he was direct with me I would rather him be yeah like at first it was probably like a shock and I was like well damn like you didn't have to say it that way but like truly reflecting on it was like

I appreciate that.

So I don't know.

Like I do need to, because I think also I set myself up for a cycle of like talking shit, right?

Like if I'm not direct and I do something I don't want to do, and then I turn around and complain to my partner about doing this thing that I didn't want to do because I couldn't say no in the first place.

Now I'm talking shit.

I don't want to talk shit.

And so it just becomes this like never ending fucking cycle.

I think first it's trusting myself, committing honesty and like,

and by honesty, I more so mean like, okay, I, do I actually want to do this for myself or do I not want to do this for myself?

Am I doing this for somebody else?

Like really like focusing on that first so that I can decide what's what.

And then, yeah, I would agree like breaking the trust with myself.

If I know that I'm not going to be happy with the outcome of this, I need to say no to begin with.

Updates on friendships, maybe talking about where your friendship is with Bone, Sterling, et cetera.