Kara Swisher

the ability to love myself at whatever size and whatever development stage I was at.

My father had contempt for my mother, who was quite overweight.

My mother was always on a diet or overeating.

And I, as I mentioned, got sent to my room whenever I had feelings that were unpleasant for my parents, and we didn't eat.

If we got sent to our room, that was the English way.

And I developed so many weird thoughts about myself as a woman because my father loved thin women, long, thin, buxom women.

And in the 50s and early 60s, before there was the women's movement, it was okay for men to comment on a girl's body.

And I can remember...

being a little girl, Monica, you know, being seven, I was really skinny, being seven and eight and people saying, don't you feed her to my mom and my mom having to laugh and pretend it was funny because my natural body was so thin.

Then I started developing at 13 and 14, I got really overweight and it was, I was never okay.

I was either trying to get thinner or I was secretly binging and

In recovery, I've been cleanest over 38 years.

Oh, my God.

And I've been in recovery.

Yeah, and I got into healing.

I was bulimic for years, and I've been anorexic, but not for a few decades.

But when I was sober a year, I got into the healing around the bulimia and the hatred of my body and the fear of my body that I might gain.

Oh, my God, two pounds.

And then if the scale said I was two pounds up,

It would be like having Marjorie Taylor Greene judge me as my worth as a human being, right?