Karah

So I'm like, what do I do?

Well, after I read the newspaper, I went down to the county jail where he was still at, and I went and saw him.

And I hadn't seen him for like two years after that.

And I wasn't showing at the time, so he didn't know that I was pregnant.

And I'll never forget just looking at him.

And you could tell through the glass.

And I had never really seen my dad through a glass.

He was always in prison, so I had sat down visits with him when I was younger.

And he just looked like he could not face me, you know?

He looked like he could not look at me in my eyes because of what he did.

It's like he knew that I felt a certain type of way about it.

He knew the disappointment I had when I looked across from that man.

And I think in that moment, that's when I felt like he really did want to be a dad.

I think that's when it started to, okay, he's starting to be sorry.

Maybe he was sorry.

Maybe he's always been sorry.

Maybe he's never had the chance to really tell me everything that he needed to say.

So that's when it all started because I was like, you know, this is fucked up.

He's in prison or he's going back to prison.

He has nobody to talk to.