Karah

For the night, I just, okay, sorry, I'm jumping ahead.

It kills me.

But I remember going and just being by his side.

And he wasn't awake, but they told me he could still hear me.

And so I told them that I forgave him and that I loved him and that I was sorry.

Because more than anything, I am sorry, right?

for maybe being so cold-hearted, for being so maybe dismissive when I could have been a little bit more understanding, you know?

So I told him I wanted him to know that.

And I just remember looking at this man and I felt so sorry for him, like laying in that bed.

And I'm like, here you are with nobody.

You're done with nobody except your children.

You know, like, it's crazy.

That's just what I remember thinking, just thinking, being just feeling so sorry for him.

So I had went home that night.

And because I was with my sister-in-law and my niece and my brothers stayed with him.

And they got through the night.

And so the next morning I was on my way and I was driving up there.

And this is also a town that I was not super, you know, familiar with.

And I just remember my brother calling me and saying that,

you know, he was gone, that he was gone.