Kate Cassidy

I've never seen a wallpaper like this before.

It's lion heads with this floral design.

It's something that's not just a color or not this sort of design that you would see shopping for a painting at,

TJ Maxx.

It's just this design that I've never seen before moving into this house in London with Liam.

And the fact that that was in the suite, I immediately, that's the first thing.

I walked into the suite and I just stopped.

I turned to my friend and I said...

This is the same wallpaper that me and Liam had in our bathroom in London.

And then we leave the basketball game.

At this point, it's kind of late and we just want to get some food in us.

So we go to this quick little restaurant for a bite to eat.

We were the only ones in the restaurant because I think their kitchen was about to close within five minutes.

We walk into the restaurant and the song that's playing as we're walking in is Night Changes by One Direction.

And the first place my eyes go to is the TV screen behind...

the booths and it was Liam on the screen they were playing the music video and it was just three side three big signs in a row being here in LA and I just knew Liam was with me that night and Liam was there at that basketball game with us Liam was there that night eating tacos with us he was there with us and seeing those signs make me feel so much more connected and close to him and that I know he's here and he's listening to me and he's he's far but he's not too far

I think the hardest thing that this has, of course, brought me is this loneliness feeling.

And you go from being with somebody 24-7 to knowing and facing the reality that you're never going to see this person again in this life.

And that for me is something that I still just cannot fully process in my mind.

And I think that...