Katie

The last instance happening four years ago.

And I just want to know how I can work towards rebuilding that intimate relationship with him and also earning, gaining trust back with him and just not feeling like I have to work myself up to be intimate with my husband.

Yeah.

And that's... Hold on.

I think just from this instance, it just has made it to where things that I should just be able to talk about, you know, naturally, I have really am careful about what I ask or I'm afraid to ask them not to.

I don't know.

It's just, yeah, I'm afraid to ask very simple things that I feel like shouldn't be that big of a deal.

And I do go, and for the past two years, I've seen a counselor.

So I can remember, because honestly, I'd never, until that point, I'd never opened up about that with anyone.

And so, like I said, the last instance was four years, but I mean, even before that.

So a lot of years have passed since the very first instance.

I said it.

We kind of talked about it.

And then I think I kind of went back into myself because it made me scared that I even said anything about it, even to her.

But then just within the past couple of months, I brought it up again.

And, I mean, she's told me exactly what you've said.

But I think that's just a very...

Like you said, it's rape, and it's just hard to hear the words rape and husband in the same sentence.

I think for so long, this is just kind of how it's operated.

And so it becomes so normal.