Katie

I know, she thought I was like putting an X on you or something.

Yes.

Oh my God.

That was honestly, that was the best thing I've ever seen in my life.

Out of everything I've seen.

I was like, oh my gosh, that was gold.

Yeah, I think that's definitely the case with me and others is that you're on your own maths journey and there's so many layers to it.

storyline that you just don't get and especially mine I was you know really triggered and the rejection was just another kind of heavy thing to carry and it really it brought me to a turning point and I could implode even further and internalize that even more and

And or I could like use it as a catalyst to go in a very different direction.

And I was ready.

I was done.

That was the last time I'm ever going to let anyone make me feel bad about myself.

That's great.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, absolutely.

And I feel like the more traumatic things I go through, that went through, because I'm not doing it anymore, the more trauma I kind of have in my life, the more I comfort eat or the more I...

blame myself or the more I carry that burden and don't know how to deal with that pain and anxiety so the only thing that and a pattern and a habit that I have probably from childhood is that I would turn to comfort food or turn to binge eating because when I binge eat binge ate um I would then get sleepy so like relax me and then you know food coma myself and

you know so I just had some really bad habits going on but it was for survival it was just to get through the day and get through you know what was going on and it's just like that's my way that I dealt with trauma and bad things happening on a day-to-day or whatever scenario situation so I feel like

When I saw myself on maths and when I saw that the person that was supposed to love me for me and learn to get to know me and who I am on the inside...