Katie

Otherwise I probably would have stayed there and rotted.

So I got to the hospital and I was hysterical.

She's like, it's just a UTI.

We can fix it.

There's medicine for it.

We'll fix it.

I know it hurts.

I was like, nah, I think I've been raped.

And then I lost it.

Yeah.

It's two weeks in that apartment with no food, just water and on my bed, just confused.

I wasn't even crying.

I wasn't, I was like,

like numb and then I um got to the hospital and when I got there I started having like a massive panic attack because I was like yeah they're gonna I don't know need to know how it happened or something and then so when I verbalized it and then I I lost it and then since then

I felt like my body was a thing for people to be entertained with or to use and throw out, like it doesn't mean anything to them.

And I didn't honour my body at all.

And then eventually, you know, there was a turning point where one –

bad behavior or traumatized behavior turned into another and then that's when I started like going I don't I don't want to be that person anymore but I don't know how to deal with anything that's going on in my mind so if they think I'm ugly and if they think I'm gross and undesirable then they'll leave me alone and I won't have to give myself to them anymore

So I just started eating and that became my thing and then I,

Got to probably a size from like an 810 to a 12.