Katie

I'm going to have my good thing to be proud of, you know.

And then COVID came along and I lost everything there too.

And that's when I really started putting on a weight, a lot of weight.

I was like, fuck, like I can't even...

I can't even do that like and I know and I did go to self-blame there too and my mom like she was like Katie come on girl like it's a global pandemic it's not your fault and when I was liquidating the business I was on the floor crying so much because I was like oh

I gave everything to try and create something good in my life.

And, like, not even that's working.

Like, I'm actually, like, a massive fucking failure.

And there was no evidence in my life of being successful.

So I was, yeah, it was really, really difficult.

It was really difficult to...

then get myself out of that mentally and go, you know what, I am enough.

I don't need accolades.

I don't need a good body to be worthy.

I don't need a 10 out of 10 face to be of value in the world.

I don't need anything.

Like I'm allowed to exist as I am with nothing and that's enough.

So, but I still binged.

like that would come up and then I'd eat at night, I'd send myself off to sleep in a food coma.

I would get stressed and I would turn to something sweet or something, just that was my way of comforting myself.