Katriona O'Sullivan

What I have now is I can open Facebook or Instagram and I can see the messages about being slimmer or smaller or smoother.

And I'll have a thought, I need to do something.

I'm not good enough.

And now I have a moment after that.

And the moment goes like this, Matt.

Is this decision, the decision to try to shrink yourself or smooth yourself, going to help Katrina get back to that little girl who could cartwheel and play football?

Is this a loving thing to do for your body?

I never had that before.

That's the gift of healing.

There's no perfect arc in this story.

I still doubt.

I still worry that I don't fit.

I'm not small enough.

But now I have a moment and now I have a lot more capacity to say I'm good enough the way I am.

I don't know if any woman ever will feel 100% in their own body.

And I don't know if that's something I'll ever get to.

But I have now a moment where I'm not making the decisions to hurt myself anymore.

I am really healthy.

And that's the mad thing.

When I went for the surgery, the doctor did actually say to me, you're really healthy.