Katriona O'Sullivan

Yeah, so my Topshop jeans, anybody who remembers Topshop, I had a size 12 Topshop jeans, which is quite small actually because Topshop are quite a small brand.

And I kept them for years and I would actually pull them out of the wardrobe, slide myself up into them, try my best.

It was like my measure of success if I fit into these jeans.

And the only time that I actually fitted in them when I was disordered eating to the extreme.

Yeah.

Like, my body's not meant to be there, Brendan.

Like, there's a homeostasis that comes with body shape and size as long as you're healthy.

Like, I'm not an advocate for people being unhealthy.

That's not what this is about.

It's about trying to like your body and understand your body.

But them skinny jeans, I had them for years.

Actually, I was going to go up into the loft.

They're probably still up there.

I know there's an old top as well that I used to fit into.

But that idea of an after, the destination...

We're sold that all the time.

Like I can open my social media on any day and see a before and after picture.

And in the before picture, they're all like flat and their faces are sad.

And then in the after picture, there's better light and there's fake tan and the hair is done.

We're all sold the idea that there's a destination for us to reach.