Keilan

And also like obviously moving to another country, another city where I like kind of barely, like I kind of know like two people.

Not well, but like I don't really know anybody at all.

So the fear was also giving like,

oh shit, I have all these people here that I love.

Like a life that I'm building here.

Like things are like, are moving in like career wise too here.

Something, I mean, I left for a reason.

Like something did feel like unsettled for me.

And like, I knew that I like wanted to like expand and like just see more and like do that.

I knew that in my heart, that's how I was doing it.

But also the fear setting of just like, oh my God, it would actually be like,

a lot easier to stay, would be more comfortable to stay.

Like, what if?

I don't, it was just like, what if, what if I don't like it at the end of the day?

Like, what if it like doesn't sit right for me?

Like, like what if something goes wrong?

Like, I don't even know.

I couldn't even tell you what I thought was going to go wrong.

It was just like, like the anxiety of just like, I could just stay here.

What am I actually fucking doing?