Keith Zlomsowitch

She was talking about surprising Aspen.

So imagine my heartbreak.

I hadn't spoken to Nicole for six months or so since that infamous 911 call where we weren't allowed to speak anymore because of OJ.

Still loving her, still thinking about her every day.

She's dead.

She's gone.

I'm holding her casket.

I'm standing two feet away from the guy I know in my heart and mind murdered her.

And I'm told that she was thinking about me the night she was murdered.

I was I can't even tell you the emotions that went through me at that point.

So it was crazy.

And then as we went down to the burial site, I actually had to stand next to OJ Simpson, almost elbow to elbow for an hour or whatever time it took to read the rites of passage and everything that took place down there, knowing what had happened and having to stand next to him.

just imagine my emotions during that whole thing.

It was, it's hard to describe.

I try to do that in the book.

I do my best job of trying to walk the reader through exactly what I was feeling and my emotions, but it was crazy.

Never married, never had children.

Um,

I don't know if that's strictly because of my relationship with Nicole, but I never got over it.

My life turned into a circus, obviously, with what was going on.