Kelly

And while my mom and my other brother reacted with me, we were all reacting to it, Brian, I saw himself isolated and shut down.

And that's the first time I've ever seen him like that.

I do think that that had an effect on him somehow.

Right.

Yeah.

I think like some things just build up and cause the trigger to happen.

And I think that was one of them for him.

For us, for the rest of us, I think we all reacted and expressed ourselves.

We all did.

stop talking to that side of the family we do not talk to them anymore because that was just crazy but at the same time none of us really spoke about it after that day so we never really had a conversation after that um i don't think he i don't think brian got to let it out i don't know even know if he would know how to talk about that but

yeah so that was crazy then we go up to i would say me going to your university for your college so as far as my mental health i was doing pretty good in high in college until i started having panic attacks so

For me now, I know I'm diagnosed with panic disorder.

Me too.

It is the worst thing.

And it's all just, it's not even like you doing it to yourself.

It's like you're, it's just your body attacking for no reason.

I would think so.

I don't know if I've ever like removed myself or because I'm just like I felt it for so long.

I felt it throughout childhood that it's just become what I'm accustomed to.

Yeah, it's become the norm.