Kelly

But it kind of just happens abruptly to when I'm in this situation and can't leave.

I always say that too.

I always.

I always just go directly to.

I'm going to pass out.

No.

It's so good to hear somebody else get it too.

But.

To answer your question, I think now I can recognize that when those situations are occurring, I think back then I

was so accustomed to it that I didn't allow myself to leave those situations I just stayed also because my anxiety is like you can't leave like they're gonna want they're gonna see that something's happening or like they're gonna be like are you okay and I do not want people to ask me if I'm okay it's a crappy thing it's like there is no right thing to do you're just like let me just sit here and not move until it like hopefully goes away the worst the worst feeling ever

I mean, now I do have a partner that understands what I'm going through because I've told him literally everything, my husband.

So I do have somebody who I can tell, like, I need to get out of here.

And he knows exactly when my anxiety is starting to happen.

That's exactly how I feel too.

And yeah, it definitely started happening in college days.

And the first like panic attack that I remember was not too long after a breakup, like a terrible breakup with my first boyfriend.

I was just inside my head and so many thoughts going on.

I was just like feeling so many emotions.

Yeah.

getting overwhelmed with them i couldn't stop thinking and that's now i now how i realize the panic attack is occurring but i didn't realize it at that point i was like just thinking about it over and over also because i have ocd too and so my brain is just like continuously going on and i was in i remember being in a car and this was happening and then