Kelly

Because once you have a panic attack, it feels like it's never going to end.

And it's very isolating too.

Yes, it is.

people who haven't had it just don't understand and they're like oh my gosh what was happening to you so yeah that was that was a crazy time and that was the beginning of my panic disorder i think actually i don't think that was the beginning i think i had one panic attack previously the first time ever was when i was around 13. okay and i remember 13 so

like so well because that's when I started realizing my OCD as well.

So I'll go back to 13.

So my first panic attack was when I realized

This is very morbid, but that we're all going to die.

And I started realizing... Because I grew up going to a Christian church.

And so my mom, she didn't harp on us having religion in our life.

Like, you don't have to believe in Jesus, but I'm going to show you that Jesus is a thing.

So I grew up going to church and thinking that God is real and everything.

And that also...

Was a part of my OCD because every night I had to pray, like, my mom, my dad, everybody in my life has to be okay.

And if I didn't pray, I would think, like, the worst was going to happen.

Yeah.

So I think that was part of my OCD.

Yeah.

And then... So I... Then at age 13, I started thinking about it for, like, for real.

I started thinking, like, oh, my gosh.