Kelly

I just have panic attacks.

Yeah.

It's fine.

But, yeah, so I would talk about them, though, and...

That's one thing I think I am pretty good at just like talking about my feelings and like letting it out and telling whoever will listen.

So I wasn't holding it all in.

I was still getting it out at times whenever I needed to.

But it did feel like a panic attack could occur at any moment.

Like I would just wake up and feel on the edge and feel like this impending sense of doom for like no reason.

Yeah.

I just, I think I just had like a lot of fears and recognizing now, I think like not believing in a God or anything, I think that contributes

do it greatly because that's really scary to you know not believe in anything and go through life and I think that's where I was at at that point I didn't have any I didn't have faith in things I just kind of thought negatively I thought like the worst was going to happen so I think having that mindset too it just is a recipe for disaster like you're just gonna feel the worst yeah but

I think college for me was just an eye-opener for all those things.

Yeah, so then as for Brian during that time, yes, he dropped out of college.

He was not going to college when I was in university.

I think he just had...

I don't know what job he had at that point.

And then I'll move on to 2019.

That is a pretty bad year for us as a family.

That's when things took a turn for the worse.