Kelly

And if I don't do that, then I feel like something bad is going to happen.

I think at 13, I thought something bad would happen to my family or whatever I didn't want to happen would happen.

So it was kind of like this...

continuous thing it was a ritual that I had to do and still have to do just to keep control now as an adult I think I recognize it and I'm like it's just a thing to calm my anxieties and kind of I think it kind of mellows me out a bit too yeah and look whatever works for you right like I think

I think it helps me to come back and gain control a bit.

At the time, I thought like at age 13, I'm like, if I don't do this, then all these bad things are going to happen.

So I have to keep spelling.

But now I'm like, I have to spell words in my head just because it calms me down.

But yeah.

Yes.

I don't think I thought to go to therapy.

Yeah.

I just wasn't at that point yet.

Yeah.

You're still young, too.

Yeah.

And everything was moving so fast at that age.

I just kind of dealt with it.

Right.

And thought of it as, like, oh, yeah, this is my norm.