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Then a couple months later, my oldest brother passed away and he died at age 36 of a drug overdose.

So his name is Michael and he definitely plays a part in this whole situation.

So

So Michael and then my other older brother, David, were, we had always been so much younger than them that they were our basically caretakers at times.

These are the half brothers.

Yes, they're our half brothers.

And so they would babysit us when we were little and we always looked up to them.

And we mostly knew them in our childhood.

And so, yeah, so we would know them as our younger selves.

We didn't.

No, and I realize why now, because I thought they just had left our lives.

Well, David doesn't have part in this, but Michael, he stopped seeing us, and we found out because of my mom not giving him money for anything anymore.

But as children, we didn't know that there was a drug issue.

So we thought he had just stopped coming to see us.

And then after he passed away, we found out from my mom that he...

had been addicted to drugs she had known the whole time but kept it as a secret from from us which of course is probably for the best uh but now looking back on it i see how michael was a drug addict i see different times that fit that way of life so it definitely hit all of us of course it was very shocking like how did he die of a drug overdose like he

he we had never known anything of that before so it hit me definitely but i think it hit brian the most i mean my mom of course because that's her first baby and she was distraught she does have god and jesus to

fall back on and I think she's very strong in her religion so I think that's what gets her through but definitely Brian it took a toll on I think because he just looks looked up to Michael so much so even at his funeral we but like when I was there I was just kind of like talking a bunch I was asking questions to my dad because my dad was next to me so I would ask him like like what's gonna happen now like I don't I

Like, how do you even, like, know God is real?

Like, things like that.