Kelly

he so with his delusions he goes back to the girls that we went to high school with and he talks about them quite often which also makes me uncomfortable because i don't want to play into that i don't want to like think that i don't want him to think that's like

these girls are gonna like it's a possibility um but i yeah sometimes i don't really know how to answer that because i i don't really know why he's stuck on the the girls from high school who are living their lives and i think you know it's just i think that these mental

That's exactly how it feels too.

It's like you keep, I don't know what I am supposed to say.

No, that's exactly it.

Like,

Right.

That's a big thing I had to learn too is being selfish and living my own life and doing what makes me happy as well.

But yeah, I think for Brian, he says the things that we all would keep to ourselves.

So I think we all have fantasies and...

imaginations and like you said it was probably something that he fantasized when he was in high school about maybe dating one of these girls and now they just they just come out they they're just things that he says out loud and too if he hasn't really met anyone else it's like what other girls would there be for him to like focus on too right exactly

yeah so yeah I think a lot of this disorder is saying things that most people would keep to themselves and maybe not being able to see the difference between the reality and I don't know if fantasy is the right word but I'm just gonna use that for right now because that's the only thing I can think of and compare it to as my for my own self thinking about like fantasies that I've had yeah so

That's a lot of how his disorder seems to come out in work.

And then also along the lines of the girls that were in high school, there was another time that Brian was telling me he did have a girlfriend and it was a girl from our high school and

he was he had this like whole elaborate story about how they were dating and how he was gonna go see her and so yeah this was in the beginning of his psychosis and again that was at first it was believable it was like oh you guys are dating then i looked at her profile and she has a whole boyfriend and that's not brian i

Still, I didn't deny it in front of Brian.

I didn't say like, oh, that's not your girlfriend.

But I just asked him like, oh, well, like, who is, who's that guy she's with?

And he's like, oh, he's, he's nothing.

He, I could, I, I'm better than him.