Ken Rideout

No.

i started running when i was like right before i like finally got sober i was like on subutex i couldn't get off that but it wasn't like hugely negative negatively impacting my life i could still exercise and stuff and i just became obsessed with exercising and training and then when i was went through that with that detox i started running every day and the woman the the nurse would be like all right listen you're gonna feel terrible i'm like

I've done this a million times.

I know what the F I'm doing.

I know what's coming.

Spare me the lecture.

I'm pissed.

I hate myself and I'm angry.

I got it.

Then I would just go after work and flog myself running at 10 miles every day.

I would be like, I'm sweating, I'm freezing, I'm hot, I'm going to drop dead.

I just was like, nope, this is my penance.

I deserve this.

F you, you're running.

So I just started doing it every day and it became like a habit.

And I was like, okay, I'm feeling better.

Now I'm getting faster.

I'm getting stronger.

And it just became like my own source of pride and punishment.

It was like, you, this is your punishment.