Kendra Dahlstrom

And what happened with me is there has been so much, and then there've been so much dissociation that I just had stuffed so much that I never really even acknowledged it.

And because my parents didn't acknowledge it, everything was swept under the rug.

It, um, and then I got into life, um, and, and met friends that

sometimes had trauma that was, from my point of view, much worse than mine.

So I downplayed mine.

Oh, my friend saw her parents murdered in Bogota, Colombia.

Like, oh my gosh, that's awful.

What happened to me is like, ooh, no big deal.

So I downplayed my own stuff.

So I never really honored myself and my inner child to even grieve the experiences that she had gone through.

So for me, that was the telltale that like, okay,

this really makes sense for me to go back and revisit.

Now, do I ruminate on it?

No.

But what I found through that process was a lot of grief.

A lot of grief in the childhood I wish I had had.

And then a lot of gratitude for the childhood I did have at the same time.

A lot of really mixed emotions.

But I will tell you, I think it's really important to slow down and then obviously work with clinical therapists and somebody who's trained to do this work.

And