Khaya Dlanga

Sure. That's such a, wow. I've never thought about that. It's such a difficult question to answer. Um, You know, I think this is going to sound maybe a little crazy, but I remember the year I lost my brother, we were in LA with your mother in December. You and I?

Sure. That's such a, wow. I've never thought about that. It's such a difficult question to answer. Um, You know, I think this is going to sound maybe a little crazy, but I remember the year I lost my brother, we were in LA with your mother in December. You and I?

So that was COVID? Yeah, that was COVID. And I remember just having these conversations with her mother. Like her faith and her resilience. I mean, there's this profound... I think belief that she has. No, my mom is unwavering. It's crazy. And I think we connected in such a nice way, actually, with our mother in that very short space of time. And she'd go out and pray and all of that.

So that was COVID? Yeah, that was COVID. And I remember just having these conversations with her mother. Like her faith and her resilience. I mean, there's this profound... I think belief that she has. No, my mom is unwavering. It's crazy. And I think we connected in such a nice way, actually, with our mother in that very short space of time. And she'd go out and pray and all of that.

And I think part of what helped me, like maybe that moment and her faith, also just brought me back. There are certain things that I remember.

And I think part of what helped me, like maybe that moment and her faith, also just brought me back. There are certain things that I remember.

when reading when i read the bible yeah which was because the bible like makes like certain assurances which are things bad things are going to happen yeah so therefore they're guaranteed to happen and they will happen and so and one of them is like um it's like like when you walk through the rivers you will not be swept away when you walk through the fire you will not be burnt so the bad things will happen

when reading when i read the bible yeah which was because the bible like makes like certain assurances which are things bad things are going to happen yeah so therefore they're guaranteed to happen and they will happen and so and one of them is like um it's like like when you walk through the rivers you will not be swept away when you walk through the fire you will not be burnt so the bad things will happen

as they should. And I think we're not put on this earth for, you know, for pleasantness. And I think that in most people, like, I mean, I, it's, I mean, I always judge myself and always feel like, um, I have little contribution when I think about the gifts that, That I have, I think as a person. I've always found that crazy about you.

as they should. And I think we're not put on this earth for, you know, for pleasantness. And I think that in most people, like, I mean, I, it's, I mean, I always judge myself and always feel like, um, I have little contribution when I think about the gifts that, That I have, I think as a person. I've always found that crazy about you.

Okay, but always.

Okay, but always.

I know you have, that's true. And you always remind me, which is crazy. And you always say that I am more than what I think I am. Always. Which is, and I suppose I need to get to that place and you always say that I just need to get to that place so I just take it and just take that. And maybe I'm not at that place yet and it's going to come. Right. And

I know you have, that's true. And you always remind me, which is crazy. And you always say that I am more than what I think I am. Always. Which is, and I suppose I need to get to that place and you always say that I just need to get to that place so I just take it and just take that. And maybe I'm not at that place yet and it's going to come. Right. And

But, and I think for me, it's those guarantees that I know, okay, when you do this, you will be okay. It will happen. And so I try to arm myself with the knowledge that tough things are going to happen. Okay. And therefore, if they happen, I should be prepared. But I mean, the one thing that I've, I was never prepared for my brother.

But, and I think for me, it's those guarantees that I know, okay, when you do this, you will be okay. It will happen. And so I try to arm myself with the knowledge that tough things are going to happen. Okay. And therefore, if they happen, I should be prepared. But I mean, the one thing that I've, I was never prepared for my brother.

That hit me harder than anything else, than anything could possibly imagine. Why was that? Because it's just like a thing that would never happen. I just did not think that someone close to me would take their own life. He lived with me. Damn. So my brother lives with me. What did I miss? How could I not see this? I claim to love this person. Was I so self-absorbed?

That hit me harder than anything else, than anything could possibly imagine. Why was that? Because it's just like a thing that would never happen. I just did not think that someone close to me would take their own life. He lived with me. Damn. So my brother lives with me. What did I miss? How could I not see this? I claim to love this person. Was I so self-absorbed?

So these questions I was asking about myself. And I mean, he was going through an addiction, a gambling addiction. I didn't even see it. And he lived with me and I didn't know, which is what eventually led to him taking his life. And so I...

So these questions I was asking about myself. And I mean, he was going through an addiction, a gambling addiction. I didn't even see it. And he lived with me and I didn't know, which is what eventually led to him taking his life. And so I...