Kita Alexander

I'm at Disneyland, Dad.

Like, don't make me smile.

I'm pissed off.

I'm building a sandcastle.

And I think from that, you're just really young, especially women.

You're taught that's not cute.

Whereas boys are like, he's just angry.

Let him run around the oval, you know?

Yeah.

Whereas we learn to juggle our emotions very young and you've realised what people like and what they don't and how you can survive in this world.

I think it's all survival at the end of the day.

You're just like, oh, this doesn't work for me.

I don't make friends when I'm mad.

Yeah, so I think that's where I started probably to shut it down and realize I'm not allowed to feel it, even though I still was feeling it.

Yes.

And I think we kind of preemptively shut down our rage because you're expecting that other people will take it the wrong way.

And so you don't even allow yourself to speak.

And that's a big part of why I want to embrace it.

And it doesn't mean that I jump and I yell at everyone who pisses me off.

But at least I'm noticing now.