Krista

Like what if I, what if I do something stupid?

What if I respond to it?

Um, generally I just like keep my distance from that person, but I'm really scared.

No.

Um, in the past I had really poor taste in men, I would say.

Okay.

And so I don't trust that I won't fall for something that's stupid.

I guess I don't trust that I'm going to always make the wisest of choices.

Yeah.

That makes a lot of sense.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it feels like right now, if we get one-on-one time, the TV's on and it's not, that's just not, and I fall asleep and he's working on, on starting his new job.

And there you go.

I...

I feel like I used to be driven and fun and adventurous, and I don't feel like... I don't feel any of it anymore.

Okay.

I don't feel anything.

Um, I just don't think, yeah, it's like the only time I feel like a piece of me is there, you know, like I'll have moments with my son, but just every day I just look in the mirror and I don't recognize myself and I don't, um, yeah, I just feel really, really empty.

Yeah.